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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]He told me that he just knew that I was the guy whose dick he wanted to suck and to fuck him... and he couldn't explain why he felt that way. The "smart money" suggested that I just tell him okay, have sex with him and as much as he wanted to, and not be all "fussy" about it but this guy felt... wrong. I couldn't put a finger on what was "wrong" with him so I told him I wasn't interested and he took being turned down well.

It just didn't stop him from hunting me down and, yeah, I caved in again. I realized that using violence to get rid of these very persistent hunters would solve nothing and only result in me getting into even worse trouble. The thing that fucked with me the most was that I decided that I'd do it with them to get them off my case - but I wasn't gonna like any of it; got it my head that they wouldn't be able to do it right enough to please me... and, man, was I wrong about that. These guys were very damned good at sucking dick and taking my cock in their asses. At one point, I tried turning the tables on them: If you wanted me to do it to you, you gotta do it to me, too! I get to suck your dick and feel you cumming in my ass! And lot of them weren't feeling that - at first - but they'd say that if that's what they had to do just to be able to suck my dick - let alone be fucked by me - then that's what they were gonna do.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I had learned that when it came to looking for a dick to play with, um, I wasn't really good at it but because I had learned the lesson of being prey, I quickly realized that I didn't have to go on the hunt - all I had to do was wait for the hunters to find me - and they would. I got used to guys coming out of the woodwork and wanting me to blow them and/or wanting to stuff their dicks in my ass. Those guys were... easy to deal with and telling a lot of them that I wasn't interested wasn't that big of a problem.

It just never occurred to me that there would be guys who were hunters because they wanted to very much be the girl in this. In high school, once such guy hounded me for days, pleading his case whenever and wherever he saw me; he'd do [I]anything[/I] I might want if he could suck my dick. He even followed me home a few times and he just would not stop pleading his case. I even told him that if he didn't stop bugging me I was going to kick his ass... and he said that if that's what it would take for him to be able to suck my dick, I should go ahead and beat him up. I eventually caved in - and, no, I didn't beat him up. Did he live up to his promise of sucking my dick real good? He most certainly did but while he blew me, I couldn't shake the feeling that giving into him was a mistake - and it was because he wanted even more from me. Not in a "I wanna be your boyfriend" way, mind you: He wanted to suck my dick every day, sometimes twice a day and even in school; then he bugged the shit out of me until I fucked him - and then he wanted even more of that.

I took me six months to get him away from me. I should have been more forceful, maybe should have kicked his ass even though he might have liked that; I eventually sat him down and told him we couldn't be lovers any more. He was "heartbroken" and I felt like an asshole about it but I couldn't keep letting this go on. As fate would have it, two days after I "got rid of him," another guy took his place and started hunting me! I thought the guy I ditched had told this new guy that I was the one but, no - they didn't know each other.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Once I was very much into the joys of sex with other guys, it was like I had a huge sign on me somewhere that seemed to let other guys know that if they wanted sex, I was the guy to hit on. It was one thing for my friends to ask me if we could do it but I seemed to get bum rushed by a lot of guys I either didn't know well or at all, looking to do some sucking and fucking.

It took me a while to process this and make sense of it, coming to the conclusion that when it came to sex, everyone was fair game until proven otherwise. Those moments could be bothersome because I'd learned that some guys are just assholes and being all rude and crude was their idea of asking nicely and, as such, I learned to stay away from those guys. But the ones I couldn't seem to avoid - the ones who'd stalk and chase after me - weren't the guys looking for me to blow them and let them fuck me:

It was the ones who wanted to suck my dick and have it in the ass. Man... they were so fucking annoying! There were a lot of those guy and guys who I didn't like that much or something inside of me would tell me that having sex with them would be a very bad idea. No matter how much or how many times I'd tell them some version of I didn't want to do it with them, they just would not give up until, shit, I'd cave in and give them what they wanted.

And because I'd cave in, that didn't make me feel good about myself. Now, I was stupidly easy to have sex with and that was "bad enough" - but being pestered almost mercilessly then giving in? That was worse. Now, it wasn't that the sex was bad; most of those guys had mad dick sucking skills and many had butts that felt better than being in a girl's pussy... but I couldn't shake the feelings over being pressured into doing something that, before I caved in, I had good reason not to do.
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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Don't get me wrong here; I really do kinda want you to be happy with me sucking your dick... but I'm not going to fall to pieces or whatever if you say you didn't enjoy it. I'm not gonna be mad about it and it's very damned unlikely I'm gonna plead with you to give me another chance to make it better for you - I'm not that guy, either. I don't role-play; I'm not a fan of face fucking and while you might watch porn with women who get off being choked with dick - and porn with guys who seem to get off on it - or maybe you know someone who just loves being face fucked, well, definitely not that guy.

Oh, you can fuck into my mouth - I expect that but grabbing my head and ramming your dick down my throat? I will perceive that as a threat... and you're not gonna like how I'm going to respond to the perceived threat. Like I said - I'm old school and in my mind, face fucking ain't cock sucking and, really, I don't need your help to begin with.

Some guys expect other guys to act like "the girl" - and some guys, well, that just works for them... but I've never been that kind of guy and never will be and, honestly, I don't give a fuck if that's what works for you. I'm just very no-nonsense about this; I suck your dick, you suck mine and if, by chance, we get to the fucking phase of things, um, don't get it into your head that I'm gonna be the only one who's gonna get fucked because I am, after all, a man and I use my dick like a man's supposed to so, yeah - bend over and grab your ankles.

Maybe all of this doesn't make me your kind of guy... and I'll never apologize for not being the girl you might want and need. I'm a man with manly needs and one of them is sex and, again, I try to make easy for that to happen and that's something that women aren't so much of a mind to do. I'm not a girl so don't expect me to act like one and don't you dare try to treat me like one.

We will both regret it. I guarantee it. At the least, we're not gonna do anything at all and, at the worse, well, did I mention my very bad temper?[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]If you're expecting me to get all weak in the knees over how you look or how big your dick is, well, prepare to be disappointed: I don't give a fuck about any of that. I'm not agreeing or having sex with you to service your needs and have mine unattended or ignored. Decades of experiences have taught me some lessons that, really, I wish weren't even necessary; if you want me to suck your dick and you're not of a mind to suck mine, well, guess what ain't gonna happen? You wanna play alpha male games? Got it in your head that I'm submissive or can be dominated?

Please... don't even go there. I don't have anything against guys who are into being submissive or like being dominated - just don't ever expect me to be one of those guys and I'll even be nice enough to let you know that right up front and if you find that I'm not the kind of guy you're looking for, I can accept that and no hard feelings. I don't have the "right" mindset for it and, again, I have a half-century of experience that has taught me a lot about myself and, well, no: I am not a girl. Not gonna act like one. Not gonna be dealt with like one. Even if you have your dick buried in my ass, I'm still not a girl - and, oh, yeah, my ass isn't a pussy and I'd thank you not to refer to it as such. Women have pussies... and I'm clearly and obviously not female.

I'm an old-school bisexual but it's not as if I don't know or understand how more "modern" bi guys are and why they are. I get it and if that's what works for you, great... but I'm not one of the more modern bisexuals. I'm just in touch with my feminine side to be able to have and enjoy sex with other men and, really, it takes a "real man" to be able to do this and be okay with it all. I even think and I've been told that I suck dick better than a lot of women... but I'm not a woman. I'm just good at what I do and even if this is just my own opinion.

After all, if you're gonna be a cock sucker, be a good one. I'm still not a girl and never will be or even act like one just to make you happy and I hope you don't get offended when I tell you that when I'm sucking your dick, I'm really not doing it to make you happy and like a "good girl" is supposed to do. I am, unashamedly, a selfish cock sucker: I do it because I not only love doing it, it makes me feel all kinds of wonderful and if it's making you feel wondering, so much the better... but I'm not doing it because I'm supposed to make it good for you. You'll always get my best efforts - to do less than that makes no sense but, nope - I'm not sucking your dick for your pleasure alone - I'm not that guy. Whether you liked what I did or not, I got to do what I wanted to do - I sucked your dick and, hopefully, took your cum from you and if I didn't, I still sucked your dick - and that makes me happy even if it didn't make you all that happy.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I'm not a bitch and not your bitch; not a "good girl;" absolutely, positively not your baby, honey, or sweetheart; I'm not a whore or a slut and no matter how you think I'm behaving while I'm sucking your dick and even less so should you be one of the very fortunate ones who's allowed in my ass.

I know a lot of bi guys can be... a bit feminine when they're with other guys; I know some guys do, in fact, want to be dated/courted and would love hearing terms of endearment coming from you and some really don't mind being called a bitch or a slut during sex... I'm not one of them. The thing is that if you and I get together for some kind of sex, I know you're a man and I'm going to interact with you like the man you are; to do anything else, to me, is disrespectful unless, of course, you let me know ahead of time that being treated like a girl would be fine and dandy with you... and I still might not treat you like a girl.

I learned early on to let guys know right up front that, duh, obviously, I'm not a girl; I'm not even an effeminate kind of guy. Yep - I suck dick; yep, I've been fucked. Those things, again, have always been owned by women and I even understand that some guys would be thinking like that when with a man... but with me, you'd be better off not letting me know what you're thinking while we're doing whatever we're doing.

Because I'm not a girl and I do not expect to be treated like one in any way. Now, I know how this might sound to a lot of guys and I do know how many guys I've made... unhappy over the decades because they want and/or expect me to act like a woman; I'm not gonna worship your dick; I'm never, ever gonna beg for it and I'm sure as fuck not gonna do or say anything, oh, like calling you "daddy" or some other dumb shit like that only serves to stroke your ego. One guy said, while fucking me, "Say my name, bitch!"

I broke his arm at the elbow and was ready to do even worse to him. I'm not in any denial or otherwise bullshitting myself about what I do when I'm with a guy: I know what it all looks like, what the roles are in sex and what they mean but just because I do "girly" things with guys, do not ever let it get into your head that I am, in fact, girly: That would be a mistake. I look at it like this: If you expect to be treated like a man - and I will treat you like one - then if I expect anything, it's to be treated like the man I am as well.

There's just some shit I'm never gonna tolerate. Like slapping me in the face with your dick; the last guy who did that got slapped hard enough to make him almost pass out. True enough, some men and even women like this... I don't and I wouldn't dare do that to another guy because I respect the fact that even though he's sucking my dick, he's still a man and, yeah, that goes for those very effeminate gay men, as well.

I knew a guy in high school who made the mistake of thinking a very effeminate gay guy I was friends with was as "girly" as he tended to behave; that guy spent weeks in the hospital thanks to the very manly ass-whooping he got from my gay friend... and all because that idiot forgot that gay men are still men.

I'd prefer that things never go like that. As long as we treat each other like men - and no matter what we're doing to each other - that just works. All that shit you might see when you watch porn? Leave it at the door. I'm not having any of it. You wanna give me a facial? I wouldn't, if I were you. You wanna be slapping on me, maybe choking me or otherwise trying to manhandle me? You really don't wanna do that - I just don't react well to it and my reactions tend to be... bad.

I am, really, really easy to get along with and I freely admit that I go out of my way to make it easy to have sex with other guys... just as long as you remember that I am a man and in every way that means. This makes me come off like I'm some kind of hard-ass or I'm just being difficult and, yeah, maybe even being a bitch about it and if that's what you think, well, you're entitled to think whatever you want to but make no mistake: This is the man that I am saying all of this stuff and, again, I learned a very long time ago that I just do not like being treated like a girl.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I suck dick and if I'm feeling you like that, I'm not opposed to being fucked. You want your dick sucked? Doesn't take a whole lot to convince me that it would be a good thing for both of us. But the one thing you should always keep in mind is that I am not a girl... so if you're of a mind to treat or even speak to me like I am, we're gonna have a problem and one I'm sure you do not want to have.

I remember the first time, while sucking this guy's dick, he said something like, "Yeah, girl... suck my dick!" and the instant I heard "girl" come out of his mouth, I was on my feet and punching him dead in the face before I was even aware that I had moved. Then he said, "Bitch, what's wrong with you?"

And I kept right on punching him. I was pretty insane, I have to admit. Yeah, I knew that I was into a kind of sex that has always been in the primary domain of women... but I'm still not a girl. I don't have their emotions, don't have their... confused way of thinking. I'm not... needy like that; I don't need promises to be made or kept, I'm not of a mind to lay down a lot of conditions in order for you to get into my pants, you know, as long as you're clean and not my idea of an asshole. I sure as fuck don't need you to be into me and if you're looking for me to be all into you, well, I'm never gonna say that I wouldn't be but don't hold your breath on that one.

In short, it would be best for all involved for you to remember that even though I'm a cock sucker, I am as much - and maybe even more - of a man as you are. You piss me off, I'm not gonna start crying; I'm more likely to cuss you out and, believe me, it's taking a lot of effort not to give into the urge to open a can of whoop-ass on you - I have a very bad temper and one that years of martial arts training barely manages to keep in check.

You don't have to date me; you don't have to court me; don't even think about trying to blow some dumb shit past me and like you'd do in order to get into some woman's panties: I'm a guy and I not only know about that dumb shit - because I've used it myself, I kinda excel at it and, as such, I know it when I hear it.

If we throw it down and there's not going to be a second time - and as far as I'm concerned, if you're expecting me to blow up you phone and beg for more of that supposedly good dick, I hope you're not holding your breath or waiting for me to do that and if you get miffed that I'm not calling and asking for more of that dick, well, again, you'd do well not to say anything to me about it or otherwise act like I'm at your beck and call.

You're not gonna like what I'm gonna say.[/SIZE][/FONT]

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