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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Here's the funny part: I very much liked guys sticking it all the way in and doing it to me... but I [B]hated[/B] having my temperature taken with that glass thermometer getting stuck in my ass. Back in the day, all thermometers contained mercury and one time when I was sick and the doctor arrived and wanted to take my temperature - and was about to stick it in my butt, I asked him why he had to take my temperature like that.

He said that doctors knew that some kids would wind up biting the end off of the thermometer and not only get that piece of metal and glass in their mouth, they'd also get mercury in their mouth - and mercury was poisonous and could kill someone. So it was safer to use the kind of thermometer that could take a temperature without having one in our mouth. Back then, rectal thermometers were a bit longer and thicker than the kind you could put in your mouth... and it didn't feel good going in there at all. I didn't think it felt back when the doctor would use a finger coated with... something and rubbed it on my hole and stuck his finger in a little bit - in fact, that felt really good... until then next thing I'd feel was that cold (and they were always cold for some reason) and kinda "fat" thing being pushed into my butt and, for some reason, it always seemed to hurt and always made me feel like I was going to throw up.

I learned to hate getting my temperature taken like that and so did every kid in the neighborhood... but those of us who were doing it to each other? Having a prick going in there would hurt more than the thermometer did and we just strangely didn't mind that; indeed, one of our favorite games played as a prelude to sex was playing "Doctor" and the most fun part was when the "doctor" would put his "thermometer" in our mouth... or our butt and it was better when they could stick their "thermometer" in as far as they could get it.

For other guys, eh, not so much. Some guys would rather have the dick in their mouth than in their ass but, again, the funny part is that they'd want it in them... just don't stick it in too far, okay? Now, some guys would say this and I'd try my best not to stick it in to far... only to have them tell me after a few seconds of fucking them to stick more in; then there were the guys who would get fighting mad if, even by accident, more dick got stuck in than they wanted; nothing ruins a mood more than the guy you're fucking somehow managed to punch you in the nose or he jumps up so fast that, sometimes, your dick would get painfully bent in the process.

But what would get me either laughing or scratching my head was being a lot older, a guy would want me to fuck him... and before I could even get the head of my dick against his hole, he'd say, "Just don't stick it in too far, okay?" Now, because of my experiences with this in my youth, I'd learned how to not stick it in too far and that for most guys, "too far" was not letting the fattest part of my dick get in there and I guess I had the "benefit" of not having one of those huge cock knobs that, all by themselves, could hurt something fierce and more than the rest of the dick would going in.

I would think - and sometimes stop and ask, "How do you expect me to fuck you and cum in you - and like you said you wanted me to - if I can't stick it in far enough to do either thing?" Some guys would just baffle and frustrate me because they seemed to know that if you don't get enough dick past those muscles, it was going to hurt and, oh, yeah, they were going to push the dick right back out. Trying to keep the head of your dick in that one-inch space and fuck, well, it could be done but it often didn't feel very good since, again, the guy's muscles would be squeezing the shit out of the head of my dick... and that never felt good.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Six of the funniest words I've ever had to listen to and more so when the guy who utters them wants to be fucked but is also leery about it. As kids, there were a lot of guys who'd say this and, at the time, I never really gave the reason for this any real thought other than wondering how far is too far.

For some guys, once or if I could get the head of my dick in, that was far enough... except it wasn't usually far enough to get past those muscles that would do their best to push my dick right back out and no matter how slippery everything was. Then it was a matter of getting the guy to let me put just a little bit more in so that those powerful muscles weren't kicking me out or, worse, really clamping down on the head of my dick and making it hurt.

It was six words I never let come out of my mouth and for a couple of reasons. The first and most obvious one was that I wanted it stuck in me really far and the other was knowing there were a lot of guys who would tell the guy trying to fuck them to not stick it in too far, the guy promised he wouldn't... and stick it in as far as they could get it. So it made sense to me to not say that.

But other guys? Okay... those of us who were getting it stuck in found out that what we heard about it hurting, well, that was for real... but we also found out that after it got in - and you had a moment to get used to it - it didn't hurt that much or at all and depending on the thickness of the dick. The guys who would always say this knew that if you didn't get the head past those muscles, it was gonna hurt like crazy - then they're yelling that it hurts and take it out.

So while we knew about it hurting going in, there were some guys who didn't seem to know this part... but would say the six words anyway and I didn't know why and I wanted to know... and the answer was: Rectal thermometers.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Not to be bragging and knocking on lots of wood, I've sucked hundreds of dicks and swallowed maybe twice as many loads since, um, one of my favorite things to do is to suck a guy off... and keep sucking him until he cums again - and I have [B]never[/B] caught anything other than a mouthful of warm, tasty (or not so much) spunk... and, yeah, sometimes, a case of the runs.

I tried to suck dick wrapped in a condom... and found that it was about as unpleasant as anything I've ever done. Most condoms are lubricated and contain a spermicide... and neither of those things taste good at all that the spermicide had the most unpleasant effect of making my whole mouth go numb. Flavored condoms? To hell with those damned things! Not only did they not taste like the flavor they said they were supposed taste like, they used sugar substitutes to make them sweet... and I hated that taste and to this day, anything that's not real sugar makes me want to throw up. Even the non-lubricated condoms have a taste that I've never been able to get used to... and even if I relented and sucked a dick wrapped up in one that was supposedly tasteless, I would feel... cheated to feel his dick pumping away and all I taste is whatever the condom was made out of.

So when I suck cock, forget the damned condom; they don't taste good and they don't feel good in my mouth and, yeah, it can be risky but I am, if nothing else, careful about who gets to put their cock into my mouth so I can swallow their load... because not swallowing it still doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me and, besides, if swallowing does nothing else, it gets rid of the "evidence" and, yeah, I might not be kissing someone until some toothpaste and mouthwash can be used - but that's just the way it goes.

At some point in my cock sucking evolution, I got to thinking about all the "unborn children" who'd never see the light of day because I was swallowing sperm; I'd sometimes laugh to myself thinking that I've swallowed enough sperm to repopulate the entire world more than several times over. I had read some stuff about cock sucking and swallowing that suggested that there were cultures around the world whose rites of passage included swallowing sperm and it was believed that the true essence of a man was passed on to those who needed to be, say, a good hunter or warrior in order to take their place among the men of their tribe or village.

I thought that while it's what they believe, it was probably a reason to justify men sucking on each other's dicks and swallow that salty/sweet load of spunk because it's just so hot, erotic, and pleasing to take a man's sperm and swallow the essence of what it is: His seed.

I have never asked or told a guy not to cum in my mouth... and I never will. I had to learn not to get miffed when a guy couldn't cum and no matter how long I'd work to get him to cum - sometimes, shit doesn't happen but if this situation taught me anything, it taught me to be relentless in my pursuit to get him to spill his seed into my mouth so I could consume it and as I think it should be done. Some guys look at it as the reward for all of their hard work and I don't necessarily disagree with that thought... but for me, if I'm going to suck a guy's dick and he's gonna cum, swallowing it is the thing that makes the whole thing... complete and very satisfying. To feel his cock pumping is nearly indescribable; there's just something deliciously nasty about having that feeling in my mouth and feeling his spunk on my tongue for a moment before down the hatch it goes.

I like the look some guys get on their face as their sperm flows into my mouth, like they can't believe that I'm swallowing their sperm even though I told them I would - duh. Seriously, if you tell me that there's a reason why I shouldn't swallow it, I'm not going to be sucking your dick and if I get even the slightest hint that sucking and swallowing ain't gonna be in my best interest, well, your dick isn't going to get sucked and the best that'll happen is you'll get jerked off and I'll just watch, with a lot of sadness, your spunk going everywhere and anywhere other than in my mouth.

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[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]To backtrack just a bit in time, when HIV/AIDS made itself known, there was a lot of trepidation and fear to go along with the usual STDs. Since they were saying, at the time, that gay IV drug users were more likely to have this virus, you'd think that having any kind of sex with men would have been avoided like the plague it turned out to be... and it wasn't so much. The experts had determined that while you could catch it by fucking someone - and in the ass specifically - there was no indication that you could catch it by sucking dick and letting "bodily fluids" into your mouth [/FONT][I]unless[/I][FONT=verdana] you had cavities, gum disease, or other scrapes and abrasions in your mouth that would allow something to have access to your blood stream.

So while a lot of guys cut back on fucking, all that did was increase the number of blow jobs being asked for and given... and loads of sperm being swallowed. Being the child of science I'd always been, I poured over the research being done and discovered that saliva contains some pretty powerful enzymes that were designed to start the process of breaking down food so that the hydrochloric acid in our stomach could finish the job of breaking it down... and those processes were literally death for the HIV virus or anything else that was possible to catch if your mouth wasn't all that healthy.

Hmm. Even armed with this information, it didn't take being as smart as I was to know that the best way to avoid this [then] life-threatening situation was to be very, very picky about who I was going to suck and swallow; I learned to look for sores, cuts and scrapes on the dick to be sucked and if I saw any, nope - sorry but I can't and you'll just have to settle for being jerked off. Pulling on a guy's dick was always an important thing to see if the pre-cum that oozed out was crystal clear - and like it was supposed to be - or anything other than crystal clear and if it wasn't, the dick wasn't getting sucked and I didn't care how much the guy would pitch a bitch.

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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Interviewing potential dicks to suck on the Internet was interesting because guys not only wanted to know if I sucked dick but definitely wanted to know if I swallowed. I even figured out why it was so damned important; I'd been sucked by a lot of guys who didn't like to swallow and there was, at least for me, a huge difference in the way it would feel when I came, leading me to believe that we - guys - like it better when we can cum [I]inside[/I] and kinda not so much when we couldn't - except when jerking off and even then I had noticed a difference on how cumming felt just shooting it wherever it was gonna go and when I was cumming inside someone - mouth, pussy, or ass.

Guys expected and demanded it which for me wasn't a problem unless I knew his shit was gonna taste awful... and your shit had to be pretty raunchy for me not to swallow it. I knew about how taste buds worked and that things tasted different depending on where on your tongue you were tasting things - bitter, sweet, salty, and sour; sometimes, eh, a guy's shit was a bit funky-tasting but if I timed it right, when he'd start to cum, I'd take his dick down as far as I dared to so that his cum didn't come in contact with my taste buds so much. That and it felt... weirdly good to feel a guy's cock deep in my mouth and throat and feel his dick pumping away and his spunk just sliding on down and not tasting it so much.

Every now and then I'd run into a guy who's spunk tasted really, really good... and after swallowing it, damn - I'd find myself with a bad case of the runs within minutes. After the first time that happened, I needed to know why and learned that seminal fluid is an alkali and, as such, could upset the water balance in my stomach and guts and when that happened, yep - you get the runs. The more bitter a guy's stuff tasted, the greater the chance that I'd be sitting on the toilet for a few at some point and I just accepted that this was gonna happen and there wasn't much I could do about it and more so when not swallowing it wasn't really an option.

There were times when I'd blow a guy with the sure intention on swallowing his load... and decide that I'd rather watch him shoot because, um, it's kinda cool looking. Sometimes, when I chose not to swallow, some guys would get kinda bent because I didn't and griping about how I was supposed to swallow it and that I had to... and I'd get them straightened out in a hurry by telling them that me swallowing their shit was my decision and if ya didn't like it, well, too bad - you've already shot your load and unless I feel like doing it again, there's no telling if I will swallow it or not but since you felt the need to say something to me about it, guess what's probably not gonna happen if I blow you again?[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]As I remember, the first time I didn't swallow a guy's load, I was 35. I had very much learned that some guys? Yuck - their cum tasted like shit but since I was expected to swallow it, I would until, one day, I was sucking some guy's dick and his pre-cum tasted irony and sour and I'd learned that if a guy's pre-cum tasted bad, the rest of it would taste bad.

This guy's shit was downright horrible and I had made up my mind that not only was I not going to swallow it, I wasn't going to let him cum in my mouth at all. So when I thought he was getting close, I stopped sucking him and used my hand on him until he busted... and there was a part of me that was very sad to see those jets of cum shooting out of the head of his dick and landing on my hand and on him (and some got on the floor). He didn't even ask me why I didn't let him finish in my mouth... but the next guy I didn't swallow for did.

"Your shit didn't taste good at all," I had said, remembering the rather acidic taste of his pre-cum. I had learned - and because I wanted and needed to know - that a guy's sperm was going to taste like whatever he was eating and drinking and even smoking and that just by tasting his seminal fluid - his pre-cum - that would determine whether or not I was going to swallow when he came, let alone let him cum in my mouth... but the fact remains that, say, 8 out of 10 times, if I was sucking dick, I was swallowing everything the guy had to offer when he came.

One out of the two remaining times I wouldn't swallow or let it my mouth was because that first taste of pre-cum told me his shit wasn't going to taste good... and the other time, well, it didn't get swallowed because I didn't get a chance to get his dick into my mouth. Quite a few times I'd get as far as licking his knob or his shaft and - oops! Sperm would be all over the place and a few times, I'd get shot in the face, something I did not like at all but, okay, accidents happen... but there were a few guys who's idea of a good time was wanting to shoot their load in my face and I made it clear that if you do that, you're going to regret it and, besides: I didn't agree to blow you just for you to put your spunk anywhere other than in my mouth.


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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]The first time I swallowed sperm was a purely reflexive thing. One moment, all I had in my mouth was the head of his dick and my own saliva and the next thing I knew, there was some other [I]stuff[/I] in my mouth; it was thick, salty and sweet and there was a lot of it and it was giving me a problem so I swallowed it and kept swallowing until there was no more [I]stuff [/I]in my mouth.

It tasted pretty good! I could feel it in my stomach, which felt a little queasy but not enough to make me throw up. I licked my lips and I could taste it there, too... and I knew I was [I]really[/I] on to something. Sucking on my friends' dicks, well, that felt good but there was none of the stuff to be tasted; I can't really say that I was disappointed but, then again, I guess I was but, um, the next time I had a grown up dick in my mouth?

Plenty of stuff to be swallowed and tasted and even if I sucked the same adult dick again, hmm - the stuff didn't always taste the same! Sometimes it was really salty; sometimes it was rather sweet and sometimes so bitter that before my brain could really register how bitter it tasted, I'd swallowed it anyway - yuck. Sometimes it was really thick; sometimes really thin and sometimes there was a lot of it and sometimes not a whole lot.

Sucking my friends - and when they got around to shooting the baby-making stuff (aka, da jizz) - was a lot more fun because they could shoot it in my mouth for me to swallow and do it again minutes later... and do it again and every time it tasted good and not that nasty bitter taste I didn't like all that much.

At first, I couldn't understand why some of the fellas didn't want to swallow jizz. You could shoot it in their mouth... and they'd spit it out and say that either it tasted nasty or it didn't feel right in their mouth. Oh, well - their loss. Between the ages of 9 and 16, I don't recall there ever being a time when I gave a guy a blow job and he came in my mouth and I didn't swallow it.

To me, it didn't make sense not to. I was finding that there were two kinds of guys: Those who swallowed and those who didn't... and the guys like me who swallowed were the more popular ones and especially with the other "old guys" - teenagers - who I'd find out would come looking for me because they somehow found out that if I sucked their dick, I was gonna swallow their jizz.

That seemed to be a very important thing and I didn't know why it was so important; all I knew - all I really cared about - was there were a lot of guys who were very happy to give me sperm to swallow. While sucking their dicks was all that and then some, being able to swallow their stuff was even better and for me, they couldn't shoot it fast enough to make me happy but, um, sometimes they did and since I didn't expect it, I'd sometimes get pretty pissed off because I didn't get a chance to swallow it all, damn them.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]The guy I've been mentoring for a few years now often tells me how much it bothers him when his lovers call him daddy and more so when they're older than he is (and by quite a few years). He's asked me why they do that and have asked if it was possible that their father made them gay... and I've allowed that it is possible (and because I know that's how some of the gay men I knew became gay) but if he really wanted to know, ask them why they keep calling him daddy.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]He found that it's because he's a take-charge kind of guy when it comes to having sex with them and, apparently, when he fucks them, it's with authority and who has as much or more authority than a father? Many of his lovers are bottoms and more than a bit submissive... and, as he tells me, are amazing cock suckers. We often talk about this "authority figure" stuff and whether or not, again, dad was laying the pipe to these guys or it was something they wanted but couldn't get... or maybe there was a lack of authority from their dad so when they run into a guy like my protégé, calling him daddy - and as a form of respect, if you will, just makes sense to them.

He better understands this - I think - but it still bothers him to be called a sexual kind of father figure and I understand why it does - and more so since it doesn't sit well with myself, either but, yeah, I understand it and I just accept that if a guy has daddy issues because dad was having sex with him, it just was what it was and regardless to what our morality says about it. We call it abuse but it has, for me, begged the question that if a guy was having sex with his dad and didn't feel abused - and because he was all for it - is it really abuse even though the law says it is?

A very sticky and potentially ugly situation and, again, don't shoot the messenger on this one.
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