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Well, I'm new here and uncertain about what I am. I don't see men the way I see women. I definitely like women, but the question is, do I also like men?? Sometimes I imagine being a woman and being fucked by a man. I get turned on just typing this. I have had gay experiences when I was a kid/youth, but nothing special. I also don't know what anal sex is supposed to feel like. Would I enjoy it, or would I regret it for the rest of my life?? Would my self-image be damaged? I can't imagine that the girls/women I've been with would have accepted me if they knew about my "desires". I have had these homosexual thoughts for a very long time. Sometimes when I see a good-looking man he sort of drives me crazy, but this feeling subsides within a couple of days.

For example, when I was still in school there was this good-looking guy. I looked at him and felt "weird". I knew it was because of his looks. But I don't think I wanted to be sexual with him. When I see an attractive woman, however, I do want to be intimate with her on some level. At least I can imagine being so.

I was at the hospital a couple of years ago and this new patient came into my room. We looked at each other for what I felt was longer than usual and I felt like he looked almost at the bottom of my soul. I thought he could see that I was sort of attracted to him, just because of the way he looked at me. I sometimes fantasize about this guy. He wasn't muscular or anything, but he was older than me. Much older. He was almost the type of man I could have imagined having sexual experiences with.

Many times I think that I just want to cuddle with an older man, a man where I feel sheltered. Maybe I even want to kiss him and more, I don't know. I'm almost certain that I want to explore. My father was always very strict with me and he wasn't around for very long, so maybe that's why I want to explore what it feels like to be with an older man. Being close to one, I mean.

What I fear is that men would want to exploit me sexually. I can be pretty weak-willed. I fear that I would give in to sex too easily and feel like I'm being raped. I hope that there are some good gay/bisexual men out there who respect other people's boundaries and who don't just want to have sex!

That's it for now. I'm pretty sure I'll write more or edit this entry later on. It felt kinda good to write all this.

why is it so hard to find a good looking bi female on here that lives in n ga...stuck in the stix with nothing pleasureable:tongue:

Well, it finally happened. My first real time with another guy. The first actual time was a drunken night in college with a friend, but we won’t go into that too much. Suffice it to say we were both too drunk to get very far! I met this guy online and have been talking to him for about a year. We’re both married and love our wives, but have virtually non-existent sex lives. We have a lot in common, including sexual tastes and curiosities. He’s been with a couple of guys before, but only a handful of times and not very recently. Anyway, I finally got the courage to set something up, and he had the courage to go along with it.

When he showed up, I had a movie going. It’s a collection of bi-sex scenes, and this scene is one of my faves. Two guys get in the pool naked and start talking. Soon, one swims to the edge, hops out, spins around and sits on the edge of the pool. The other guy starts sucking him. They do that for a while then move to the lawn where the girlfriend discovers them in a hot, sun-soaked 69. She demands to be part of the action and they oblige. Very hot scene! Anyway… this was rolling when he came in. We chatted for a bit and sat down on the couch.

I started the movie scene over and we watched for like a minute. The guy was getting sucked on the edge of the pool. Mike said “Would you like to try that?” and nodded at the TV. I said “Sure!” We stood up and each got undressed. We came back together at the couch and I looked down at his soft smooth cock and said “Wow.” I reached down and touched it. It was amazing. Warm, smooth and soft. He grabbed mine as well and we stood there for a second feeling each other. I was chomping at the bit so I asked “Can I suck you?” He said “Oh yes.” So I sat down on the couch and he inched closer. I just wanted it in my mouth so I opened up and sucked him in. OMG! So amazing. I sucked on him and then pulled off and licked the sides of his cock. His shaft and balls were shaved and here was some fluffy hair right above his cock. Very soft. I put him back in my mouth and did everything I wanted to. I pumped him in and out of my mouth, licked the sides, swirled my tongue around the head, and pulled off and jacked him with my hand. He was getting hard and reached down to stroke my cock. I was getting hard too. Simply amazing… he asked if we could switch and I had no objection. I gave him one last lick and he knelt down between my legs. He reached over and grabbed the Gun Oil Gel I’d bought, squirted some on his hand, and started stroking it on my cock. Absolutely incredible. I love having my cock stroked and he was nailing it! When he got it lubed up, he went down on me. I was in heaven. He would alternate sucking me and stroking me with his whole hand. I was so fired up, after just a few minutes, I was about to cum. I told him to stop for a minute, so he stood back up and I went back to sucking him. I alternated sucking him and stroking him with my hand.

After a few minutes, he asked, “You wanna try a 69?” I sure as hell did! I unrolled a yoga mat I had and laid down. He straddled my head and leaned down, taking me in his mouth as I started to suck his cock. There was a bit of a height mismatch so we had problems both staying latched on! So I focused on licking and sucking his balls. No complaints at all! After a bit he asked, “Can I straddle you?” “Sure I said, go for it!” He spun around, put my cock between his cheeks and started rubbing. It was frustratingly fun! A couple of times, the head of my cock pressed against his hole and I pulled back. After about a minute I just wanted to do him so I said, “Let’s try something. Do you want to do doggie?” “I’m game,” he replied. He got up and we got in position. I rubbed my cock in between his cheeks briefly and was overcome. I wanted his ass! “Do you want me to put a condom on?” I asked. “Whatever you want,” he replied as he squirted some gun oil in the crack of his smooth ass. (He has an AMAZING ass btw) This being our first time together I thought I’d sleep easier if I used a condom, so I unwrapped one and slid it on. I slid my cock up and down the crack of his ass a couple of times to catch the lube… and then slid in. Felt incredible. Tight and warm. I just started pumping. It was fantastic. I reached around and stroked his cock as I slid in and out of him. After a while he wanted to change positions, so he sat on the edge of the couch and slid to the edge. I slid over, bent down and sucked his cock briefly and then entered him again. He held his feet up as I fucked him. It didn’t take long… pretty soon he moaned “I’m gonna cummm.” “Do it,” I replied. A few more stokes and he really started to moan. I looked down and there was a blog of creamy white cum on the tip of his cock. I didn’t even hesitate. I pulled out of him and wrapped my mouth around his cock, swirling the cum off of the tip as I did. He continued to throb in my mouth as I sucked him up and down, swallowing every drop! I licked him all over, getting everything I could as he reeled. Absolutely amazing!

I sat down next to him on the couch as he caught his breath. “Wow,” he said, “I thought my head was going to pop off!” “So you liked that?” I asked. “Oh yes, very intense!” he answered. After a couple of more minutes he asked, “Do you want to cum?” “Most definitely!” I answered. He got down on his knees as I peeled the condom off my cock. Then he took me in his mouth again. I don’t know what it is, but this guy knows what he’s doing! In no time he had me harder than a rock and on the brink! He would suck me up and down, me pumping into his mouth, then swirl his tongue around and concentrate on just the head. Soon I warned him, “I’m gonna cum.” And boy did I! I erupted! It was incredibly intense and my whole body spasamed. Like a champ, he kept his lips wrapped around my cock as I flooded his mouth. Now, after I cum, my penis gets very sensitive. I hadn’t told him this yet but as I continued to cum and he stayed latched on, working my cock, it became almost painful (but in a good way). I finally couldn’t take it and had to pull him off as my last spurt ran down my shaft and along my shaved balls. “Whoa,” he said, “you cum A LOT”. He sat up and stroked my leg as I recovered. He commented on that being amazing and I could only agree.

We got cleaned up and partially dressed. Then we visited for a while, finished getting dressed, embraced, and went back to our day. Kind of weird going back to reality, but what an incredible first time! I’m very lucky to have found someone so kind and caring to have it with!

Well. I made it tonight...
Regretably, it was not the best. I posted a CL ad, and got a response. Invited the guy over, had some fun, but it was not the best.
The guy was way overweight, and had a small cock. It was hard to find, much less suck. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind a small cock (I am not terribly huge myself), but hey, this was difficult.
Plus, the guy dripped pre-cum the whole time.
Overall I enjoyed the experience, but I sure hate hooking up off CL. You never know what you will get. We played safe, but still you never know.
I really would prefer meeting somebody off this site. I think if somebody takes the time and energy to post an ad, frequent the listings, read the postings and the blogs, and overall CARE about what is going on, then they are probably a worthy candidate.
Hope to meet somebody on this site soon (in real life, that is).

I am trying to put together a little party in a Downtown Toronto motel and Im looking for 2 other bi couples along with 4 or 5 bi men for an evening of hot fun, If anyone is from the Toronto area is interested please get back to with a pic and when your available. My hubby will be home around the 4th of may and it would be nice to have this set up for when he gets home.

Is there a Bisexual Culture? For many bisexuals, part of our identity is about who we like to have sex with rather than a bisexual culture. We like sex with both genders to varying degrees at various times and frequencies. Some monosexuals seem to invest their sexuality as part of their identity to a greater extent than other sexualities. One perception is that homosexuals have created a culture around their sexuality and identity. Heterosexuals do as well but it is generally seen as the mainstream culture of a society.

There is a belief that subcultures are composed of persons who have shared experiences, background or interests. The idea of subcultures being based on common sexuality has its roots in the actions of Adolf Brant, a German publisher in the late nineteenth and early twentieth centuries. Brant created the first homosexual publication house and followed the egoist philosopher, Max Stirmer's belief about self ownership. It is the concept of property in one's own person, expressed as the moral or natural right of a person to be the exclusive controller of one's own body and life. This includes a belief in a strong commitment to individual rights.

I think that Stirmer's belief would be accepted by many bisexuals. The exclusive controlling aspect as to what a person does with their own body and life would be part of acceptance that who you have sex with is up to the individual rather than the sexual moral of mainstream external forces. Bisexuals do not necessarily see their sexual preference as a static experience for their entire life. This is in part of the fluid aspect of bisexuality. Whether bisexuals see a culture as Brant did may be not as easy to perceive.

LGBT "culture" has been defined as the common culture shared by lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people. It is sometimes referred to as "gay culture” or "queer culture", but those terms can also be specific to gay men's culture. Just exactly who then is really represented by this GLBT cultural group /organization?

Gay Culture often refers acknowledging famous gay people in the arts and politics, famous gay historical people, understanding the political Gay movement, an appreciation of things linked to the stereotype of Gay, figures and symbols of Gay like the rainbow flag, etc. Gays seem to have developed a culture whether it involves drag queens or at one time secret codes as to what sexual activity the gay person was interested in (hankies, bears, twinks etc.). Pop culture has been chosen by gay men as icons whether it was Bette Midlar, Madonna, Lady Gaga but fewer male icons. Drag queens are often noted for portraying these female gay icons. etc. How many of these things are part of being bisexual and bisexuals' identify with these symbols?

Some posters on bi.com seem to promote this identity scenario as being a member of a group/community. Many bisexuals report that when they find such sites such as bi.com, they feel comforted to know that they are not alone. A few bisexuals post that they are searching for famous bisexuals in history, politics and the arts as a means of identifying in a positive manner with other bisexuals. They may be seeking a bisexual culture.

There are written thoughts about gay culture and this is sometimes put under a single banner of a GLBT community. The recent British report on Bisexuality states something different. "It is important to refer to LGBT communities (plural), rather than community (singular), because even within each category (lesbian, gay, bisexual, trans) there are inevitably multiple overlapping communities and groups, rather than one explicit community" p17 *

In the early days(1950's) of the Gay Rights movement, reports are written about the conflict within the movement. There were those who believed that Gays should integrate as much as possible with the mainstream heterosexual culture in order to show heterosexuals that homosexuals are just like "them". Others argued to agitate for change. I think that this dichotomy continues between these two perspectives with bisexuals today. Public visibility will make bisexuals acknowledged. Speaking out about bisexual issues will create change in the other sexualities' perspective about bisexuals.

The Lesbian Culture may have influenced Heterosexual Culture when looked at from a certain perspective. There was a dispute in the early1950's between lesbians and whether they should wear pants or dresses in a group identifying itself as "The Daughters of Bilitis". Pants were seen as male and therefore perhaps seen as cross dressing in that era. The role of feminism in the 1960's brought the argument into more mainstream heterosexual content. This created visibility of a more openness for dress codes for women. It was not seen as cross dressing once it became mainstream in the heterosexual culture. It may be argued that the role of cross dressing for men remained more isolated than cross dressing for women due in part to the success of feminism.

The Gay Culture has been successful since the AID's epidemic in promoting the concept of monogamy within the Gay Culture. Studies indicate that gay men have become more monogamous like the other monosexual group, heterosexuals. Have gay men reached a point of proving themselves just like heteros? Some point out that monogamy within Gay Culture may have made gay men more monogamous but there is a very significant number of gay men in relationships who are not monogamous. There is the appearance of being a monogamous couple but the reality is that many are not monogamous. My gay friends point this out to me as well as my bisexual friends who practise casual sex fuck buddy philosophy.

If there are any developing bisexual cultural aspects it is developing to focus on causes such as biphobia and Bi Invisibility within the heterosexual and homosexual groups. Issues remain in part unresolved as to how to promote the sexual fluidity found commonly amongst bisexuals as part of a bisexual culture. There is an attempt to develop bisexual icons such as a bisexual flag and a day for bisexuals. Do the bisexuals know this day and celebrate it? Do the GLBT organizations create parades on this day? I don't see much happening not even on this bisexual web site.

It seems to me that bisexuals are mainly interested in practicing their sexual fluid preferences and to be left alone in peace and acceptance is what they want. We are a sexuality but do we really seem certain if we want a bisexual sub culture? As far as Stirmer's philosophy, bisexuals seem to believe that they are in control of their own body and life but have not clarified any ideas about bisexual morality or rights that we see as essential to be the controller of our own life.

The GLBT organization/culture is not going to do "it" for us either. There is increasing acceptance of same sex activity but not that it is [I]"proper[/I]" (morally correct) to want/need sex with both men and women. There are no ad campaigns being sponsored by the GLBT organizations supporting that a bisexual man may want/need sex with another man but that doesn't negate his emotional love for his female partner. No GLBT organization is demanding scientific research to determine if bisexual men or gay men are the main source of spreading HIV. Some might argue, "What difference does it make whether more gay men are infected with HIV or bisexual men? They are both spreading HIV". Doesn't that read like Bi Erasure[I][B]**[/B][/I]? It does to me.
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[B]*[/B]The Bisexuality Report: Bisexual Inclusion in LGBT equality and diversity (Meg Barker, Christian Richards, Rebecca Jones, Helen Bowes-Catton & Tracey Plowman)

[I][B]**[/B][/I]Bisexual erasure or bisexual invisibility is the tendency to ignore, remove, falsify or re explain evidence of bisexuality in history, academia & research, the news media and other primary sources. In its most extreme form, bisexual erasure can include denying that bisexuality exists.

For years I have been looking for a bi women who can understand that I am bi. I dated one for a while, but she moved away and we tried the long distance thing, but it didn't work out. I have checked out different sites, including this one, but I know there are more bi woman who are local.

Anyone have any suggestions? I know a couple of other local bi guys in the same situation, so I don't know if it is just something with Minneapolis, or if this is widespread.

[QUOTE=needdickloving;227191]I love it when the girl i am with straps one on me. I like the control of her cock going in and out of me.. wish there were more[/QUOTE]