For years, I've felt insignificant. I know there are many people out there who struggle with this, although the egomaniac inside of me wants to believe I'm the only one. I feel like no one notices anything I do, no one hears my words, not a single person understands anything I am trying to say. I spend my days alone, hiding from the world because I feel like I don't matter even a tiny bit. And then I came back here to check in. I wrote an essay a few years ago about what it is like to be married and bisexual. Almost 26,000 people have viewed my words since I wrote them. I had message after message in my inbox from people just like me, kind souls who felt like no one was listening and the ones who were, didn't understand. In the 2 (maybe 3?) years since I posted the thread, there's been a steady trickle of encouragement and gratitude from people who say that my words have made a difference to them. I'm in no way trying to toot my own horn. To be honest, I felt like that post could have used a damn good editor and a complete rewrite ;) The point I'm trying to make is that so many people saw past all of the obvious flaws and finally someone listened to something I had to say. That, no matter how insignificant I feel sometimes, I'm only as insignificant as I want to be. No one will ever notice anything I do if I don't make a single effort to be heard. (I don't even know if this makes sense. I just needed to attempt to put my feelings into words)
I woke up this morning and decided that this would be the day that I would suck my first cock. I went to a local park that I was told was used by men for sex. I got there about lunch time and after about a 30 min waited another car pulled in and parked next to me. We started to talk and before long he told me he was alone in the office today and wanted to know if I would like to go back with him for awhile and of course I said yes. We get to his office go in side and he locks the door walks up to me pulls me up to him and I unbuckle his pants and get them off of him and before I knew it I was on my knees with his cock in my mouth and altho it was my first I felt like I had been doing it all my life. I sucked his cock for abit sucked and licked his cum filled balls for abit. I took my time while I sucked and stoked his cock until his balls emptied his cock juice and kept on going until he said stop. I cleaned up his now soft cock and asked him if i could suck him again but he gave me his number to call in a few days. All I can say is Iam hooked now for life ...Iam a cock sucker and cant wait to suck another
I have known all of my life that I was gay but I never would except it. The last few years my life has been a constant battle within myself not to give into it but I have reached that point where I need to give in and explore that gay side of me altho Iam married and really dont want a divorce I want to find a man in his 60s that will allow me to explore his body with my hands at first and then when I feel comfortable I want to satisfy him with my mouth and be a bottom to him......
any nj couples looking for a bi male???
I enjoy both really, I kind of cycle though and never get tired of either If I can get either ...My gf of 10 years doesnt seem much intrested in sex anymore :( so ive pursued men older than myself more and Ive enjoyed those times and learned alot about who I am and what I enjoy... sex is good, a man's touch is far different from a womans, and I enjoy the difference at times , sometimes I enjoy it rough and tumble and other times its just nice to caress and FUCK....I love it all.
[QUOTE=gotlek;263374]Yes but I rather have a nice hard big cock in there.[/QUOTE] I usually sit on the bathroom sink every morning and wash my bum! in the process of doing this I love to work a coupe of soapy fingers in there Have been doing this now for a few years, and love it. Feels good to massage them hemmoroids as well as the prostate! Although I still have a yearning for a nice cock in place of my fingers! Well fingers and his cock just my :2cents:
I'm a 62 year old guy who had a handfull of MM experiences in his twenties, mostly fueled by recreational substances. Today I sucked the first cock I've had in about 25 years. It was disappointing in some ways. I was too affectionate for him, stroking his body and a little kissing. It freaked him out a little. I should have been more in tune, but it's just my nature. Here's the thing. After 25 years of wondering I discovered I really like a cock in my mouth...no substances required. So begin the questions. I haven't had a girlfriend for awhile so am I strictly gay? I don't know, but I don't think so. It changes the whole equation though, doesn't it? I am more emotionally attracted to women and would prefer to have a long term relationship with one. The chances of finding one so open minded? In Texas? Not so good. Should I choose to have a male partner how will my daughter take it ? Keep in mind I'm 62 and it is much more difficult to develop relationships anyway. It just is. Don't laugh, but it's a watershed moment for me. I love sucking cock, I'm craving it right now. . I would love to be part of a triad. I'm cool with it, it just changes everything. I would appreciate any help from people who have had a similar experience, men or women, especially more mature ones.
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