amika
Mar 15, 2007, 1:30 PM
Hi everyone! Its me the 'need help figuring me out' girl. I finally worked some courage to take a step forward. It is "M"s birthday today. I met with her on lunch with gifts and a birthday cake. A card that was filled with all my thoughts and feelings(since I am fairly inadequate with communicating my feelings verbally). You can see how pleased she was by all the effort. She didnt even cringe when she saw the birthday cake I had made her. IT was a disaster! I forgot to check that it was cooked so when I turned it out of the pan part of the cake stuck, part of it was gooey and fell with a plop onto the cake dish! I had only a half an hour before she showed, so I quickly cut and pieced the cake to make a much smaller cake. I used plenty of frosting to hold all the pieces together and topped it off with fast lighting candles.
Just then she showed up and right away her eyes went to the remnant cake pieces that were lying all over my kitchen table. With a grin on her face she commented that now she believed me about how I was no chef. (I hope she remembers that with that comment I also pointed out that I had to develop other skills to make up for the lack of culinary art!)
So, anyways ... I sang her the b-day song( I know! I know! How cheesy!) and then lit her cake on fire! I had no clue fast lighting meant explosion of fire! Those 29 candles on that 4 by 4 cake just engulfed the table with flames! Mdi and I had to run away from the cake!
Thank goodness for her sense of humor because she gave me a hug and said" Wow! You sure got your point across about starting something more than a spark!"
I quess my whole point being I think now that I have opened up about my nervousness and the fact that I do want this to move forward has all been because of those from this site who helped me gain my courage. We are going out on Saturday. I guess we will see how that kiss goes. :smilies12
( I am taking sailorashores advice. trust her, and trust yourself, and don't be afraid to feel your way along slowly. [/ I think lighting the cake on fire was enough for one day. LOL!
Just then she showed up and right away her eyes went to the remnant cake pieces that were lying all over my kitchen table. With a grin on her face she commented that now she believed me about how I was no chef. (I hope she remembers that with that comment I also pointed out that I had to develop other skills to make up for the lack of culinary art!)
So, anyways ... I sang her the b-day song( I know! I know! How cheesy!) and then lit her cake on fire! I had no clue fast lighting meant explosion of fire! Those 29 candles on that 4 by 4 cake just engulfed the table with flames! Mdi and I had to run away from the cake!
Thank goodness for her sense of humor because she gave me a hug and said" Wow! You sure got your point across about starting something more than a spark!"
I quess my whole point being I think now that I have opened up about my nervousness and the fact that I do want this to move forward has all been because of those from this site who helped me gain my courage. We are going out on Saturday. I guess we will see how that kiss goes. :smilies12
( I am taking sailorashores advice. trust her, and trust yourself, and don't be afraid to feel your way along slowly. [/ I think lighting the cake on fire was enough for one day. LOL!