My bi-curiosity is finally laid to rest

[theyoungandcurious]

Here I was thinking for the past 2/3 years that I was bisexual.

Today I finally went through with meeting up with another man and to me surprise it was definitely not what I expected. I went at it with an open mind thinking that I was going to be able to explore my bi side and it turns out I don't even have one...

As much as I tried to enjoy what was going on it just didn't feel right, it wasn't me.

I met with a guy who wanted me to top him. I was looking forward to this new experience the whole ride over to his place and when we finally met I got excited and thought it was gonna be a good time.

He asked me to suck him so I did and then he returned the favor. Giving head for my first time was pretty exciting for the first 30 seconds and after it was just me going up and down thinking to myself "what are you doing?! This is not your idea of a good time" so I stopped and thought it would be a good idea to move on.

When it came time to me topping him I just couldn't get hard and as much as he tried it just wasn't going to happen but he kept at it. Doing anything to try and get me hard but I just couldn't. I was pretty turned off and really just wanted to end it there but I kept trying to experiment so I told him that if he wanted I could bottom. He was up for it and we did. It felt different and good. I thought I was enjoying it but it turns out what I was feeling was the fire&ice condom lol So I told him to stop and again he wanted to try amd get me hard but I kept insisting that I wasn't up to it as nice as possible but what I really wanted to say was "No. This isn't me and I'm extremely turned off." but I didn't.

I felt bad and didn't want for it to be a complete waste of time for the both of us so I helped him bust his load and when he finally did I felt sick.

I cleaned up, got in my car, and took off. All while I was feeling completely sick.

I pulled over not too far from his place and threw up. I was disgusted by that experience.

Don't get me wrong, I'm glad I tried it and got to experience it but it was definitely a one time thing for me. NEVER AGAIN.

I guess it turns out im not bisexual. Nope, I'm just straight and attracted to girls.

To each their own, right?

I hope you all have your own experiences and figure yourself out. Goodluck and be safe y'all.

Goodbye. -Efran

[elian]

Thanks for sharing your experience. As far as relationships go there is more than one type of attraction and more than one type of love. Maybe with the right person you might be more interested, then again maybe not. There is such a thing as fetish and fantasy that goes beyond your limits of real desire. For example, there are things I imagine doing with my boyfriend that I think I would love to do that I just don't have the stamina and dexterity to do in real life.

[Gearbox]

I was disgusted by that experience.
I'd be disgusted by that experience too, and I love sex with men.:eek2: Have had a few encounters with men that I really didn't feel any sexual attraction too and went along with it anyway only to feel like a free prostitute. A few times I've been swung to hetero due to a bad hookup, and I don't naturally swing.
So I learned to say "NOPE! Ain't happening sorry!", just as you know you should have said.

Apart from that, it sounds like you were put under a lot of pressure to top. You discover if you're a top etc, and not just expected to be whatever. So that pressure couldn't have done you ANY favours hence not getting hard no matter what he did.
And to cap it all - you made him cum even though you were not the slightest bit turned on, coz you didn't want to waste your & his time. Would you do ANY of this with a woman?:confused:

You most prob feel pretty bad about it right now, but I wouldn't let it ruin any future exploration you might want. Could well be that you just don't like sex with men, but could also be a really bad first time.

[jamieknyc]

Some people do try it and decide it isn't for them. At least you gave it a chance.

[Norfcountryboy]

Good man!
Sound to me like you gave it your best shot. I guess there's a lot of guys out there who are curious about it but just aren't prepared to man-up and be brave enough to give it a go. You did and I think you've probably learned a lot about yourself in the process. You can put it down to experience and move on.

I notice that you didn't say whether or not you found him attractive but judging by your post I guess you didn't! For me I've sometimes had sex with men who I wasn't attracted to just because I was feeling horny and they were available. It's situations like that where I've felt disgusted afterwoulds; meaningless sex just to cure my itch rather than it been about having sex with a man. Dunno if this helps. One day you might bump into a man and find yourself aroused by him and that he is available to you. Hopefully if you are ever in that situation it'll have a happier ending!

Good that you bottomed for him, I think all men should experience been penetrated once, I believe it makes us better lovers when it comes to the girls because you know how it feels to take a cock inside you.

[Cherokee_Mountaincat]

Well at least you Tried. Good on you, Darlin. Being Bi isnt For everyone, but you at least gave it a shot. I wouldnt give up entirely tho. Sex with a stranger isnt always fun. Could be he just wasnt the one who could turn you on completely and give you a wonderful experience. Meet some guys, TALK to them, get a feel of who they are. Find someone who stimulates your mind as well as your body. :}
Good Luck Hon.
Cat

[Dead Account]

Wow, thank for the post. Primary reason I've held off. I want to make sure I can get along with the guy in the mirror afterwards. I must admit the urges can be string sometimes though.

[mnTIMIDguy]

Perhaps it is worth the time to consider what you expected, or what you thought you found appealing in m2m sex. For example, anal penetration is at best uncomfortable for me, but some guys find it genuinely delightful. On the other hand, what does appeal to me is knowing that I've pleased a guy, and maybe made an intimate connection with him. It may not end in an orgasm for me, but I'm still delighted and satisfied when it's done.

[Pseudolous]

Good for you for having the courage to give it a try. I finally did the same in the last year, but my result was different, I really enjoyed blowing him, and look forward to swallowing more cum once I manage to hook up with somebody else..

[FunE1]

And now you're young and NOT SO curious... about being bisexual at least, and now you can explore some other areas of interest! And you won't have to spend years and years, like so many people do, wondering "what if..." I hope you'll change your point of view about it at some point and, rather than being disgusted, you'll see it as an adventure in sexual exploration that didn't work for you.

[CoLdHearT]

well i guess sex is isnt about exploring yourself, knowing if you're bi, straight, les, gay... just saying :tongue:

[Visexual]

You know, it's nice of you to let us know instead of just not coming back here. You are probably helping other guys like yourself. I've always been more the type to try anything more than once. OK, honestly, my first time was great. And I loved swallowing the guy's load too. Your post did remind me of my first parachute jump and how I didn't think I'd ever be able to jump the second, and next three times, in Army Jump School. I did though and went on to be a master parachutist in the Air Force. I never really loved the jumping but I did enjoy the rush.

You also reminded me of a joke;

A guy walks into a bar and orders three straight whiskeys. He downs them and orders three more. After he downs those he orders three more and, while the bartender was pouring he asks, "Why the downpouring?" The guy downs the last three and replies, "First blowjob." The bartender asks, "Celebrating?" The gay says, "no, just trying to get the taste out of my mouth."

[R. R. Wayne]

Thanks for sharing your experience. At least you gave it a try and now you know. I think that is better than eternal curiosity.